i wish i could learn to be as happy as you.
i had a dream once.that i was watching a stack of cards fall.now it's coming true.except that those cards aren't cards.it's my life that i'm watching fall apart.
it's all coming back.every single bit of it.i wanna push it behind the cupboard door,and shove with all my might and squeeze it back into that mouldy,squeaky container.but deep in my heart,i knew it was never meant to be hidden for long.there was no possible way to escape.there is still no way.part of me wants it to go away.far.but the other part of me welcomes it.
we're really back onto the old routine now.
i'm sorry i'm not perfect.
